What a WONDERFUL YEAR.........

What a year we have had together! I was sitting here and thinking back to the big day! Daddy and I were up and down all night with excitement and anxiousness for your arrival. We woke up at 5 am to get everything ready for our induction, and for us to have our "last meal" together as one. I took the last few pictures of my big ol' belly and off we were to the hospital.

We got to Mount Timp Hospital at 6 am and they hooked up all the medicine I had to be on to get my labor going. After 12 hours of ups and downs and many visitors later.... Doctor Young decided that you were not coming out unless we did a c-section. I was terrified but I knew I would receive the ultimate prize at the end of this long and emotional road.

After 5 years of being told I would never have any children, at 6:41 pm, I heard your loud, but sweet cry.  You became my true blessing from god. You made me whole. Finally, I was a mom. Your mom. What a proud mommy I was when I saw you for the first time, and I touched your soft chubby cheek. You were a 7lb 15 oz mini me!!


I was waiting and waiting for you to be brought to my recovery room. You never came. I guess at that moment in time it really hadn't hit me that something was wrong. No one would tell me anything. Daddy kept everything very quiet, so that I wouldn't get upset. Around 11 pm your pediatrician came into the room followed by your dad. Daddy had tears in his eyes, and I knew he had been crying. At that moment, I still wasn't sure what was going on. Dr. Simmons began to lay out everything that had been discovered right after your birth. He told me that you were being prepped to be transported to Primary Children's Medical Center for further tests. I shook my head in shock. I could have never guess that this was the road that Heavenly Father set before our family. Around 11:30 pm, I finally got my first chance to hold you!!! What a beautiful miracle that I had in my arms. At that very moment, I knew that my world was in your eyes , and I didn't know how I going to be able to let you go.

You were already hooked to a transport cart and I was told I had 3 minutes before the ambulance had to leave. I had so much to say to you. How was I supposed to do that in that short amount of time?

As I handed you back to the EMS, I knew that what we were about to embark on was something that was going to change our life FOREVER!!!

After you left, Daddy and I just cried. It was very surreal to have just become parents and to feel like it had been snatched out of our hands just as fast as it had been given to us. We were in shock over everything that had happened. We were scared about what was going to be. What was going to happen? Were we going to be able to handle this? All we could do was pray and hope for the best.

The next morning, Daddy went to Primary's to find out what the doctor's had found out. I had to stay in Orem at the hospital I was in. I was still recovering from the C-Section. As Daddy left that morning, I was so upset and angry that we had worked so hard to bring you into the world, but I wasn't even able to be with you. I was in so much pain, but I was mostly numb from missing you. I was having severe withdraws. I couldn't even wrap my head around this. I started to blame myself for everything that had happened.

Daddy came back from spending the day with you, and started to explain everything that he found out through out the day. He told me that you would need several surgeries to be able to live an easier and full life. I was TERRIFIED!!!! Daddy slowly calmed me down. By the time I calmed down, I was on a war path. Nothing was going to stand in my way in getting to you as soon as I could. Dr. Young came to check on me. That is when he told me as long as I could walk without a walker then he would release me to go to be with you. At 5 am on the 30th of September, I was released from the hospital. Like I said NOTHING was going to keep me from being with you.

I remember being so anxious as we got to the 3rd floor of the Children's Hospital. As daddy and I got closer to the NICU I was so nervous. I was about to see you again. It felt like the ride down the hall took a lifetime. Daddy rolled me into the room to see you. You were tucked into the corner of the NICU room. The NICU nurses did their best to prepare us for what was about to happen. The truth is I thought I was prepared, until I was told there were further things that needed to be done in order for us to take you home, and care for you and your condition. Nothing could have prepare us for anything like this.

You came out of the first surgery. You did great. We were so relieved that you were on the road to recovery. As the days went by, Daddy and I had plenty of trials throughout the 9 LONG DAYS that you were in the NICU and 9 LONG NIGHTS that we had to spend away from you was HELL! On October 7th at 12 pm, Finally, we got the go ahead from all of your doctors, to take you home. What a long 10 days it had been!!!

TO BE CONTINUED........

This is only a portion of your remarkable story. I have so many memories to share with you as you grow. I can't wait. What a truly remarkable little man you are becoming. What a crazy, but awesome 1st year that have had with you. It will only get better as the years go by. Each and every day, you bring so much joy to us. You are the BEST thing that has happened to us! What a pure joy and pleasure it has been to be your mommy!!! Thank you for choosing me and your daddy! Happy Birthday my 1 year old blessing from God.